Life is mainly a cycle of issue you're slowly getting tired of. Life is all about faith to the religion you're in, but then you start to "have a life" and actually be worrying about so many things, because without them, you literally can't survive. It's really tiring to wake up and the first thing you care is about the job, the one that's fueling you financially. You have no money, and the thing you think all the time is how you gonna get back at it. And then you get tired of it because you're supposed to not think about that so much, but yet it's what you need to keep you alive, and it's actually a MUST thing for you to fulfil. In that state of not having, you get stuck in that evil cycle and you just want it to end soon, for you to be successful, to actually be free from that.